Jean-Michel Basquiat was born on December 22, 1960 and died on August 12, 1988 of a heroin overdose. Basquiat was an American artist who was born and died in New York City and was friends with Andy Warhol. He became famous because of his graffiti.
These words from Basquiat made me think of all of the things in my life that I fought to prove I was or wasn’t and I look at it and it’s usually those things that you fight for that you aren’t that are the haunts. For me it was people thinking I was a lesbian because I was raped by three girls and they twisted the story and told all their friends and their friends etc and so on. I was beat up multiple times and it really wasn’t until I did what I thought I had to do to combat what they were spreading (which didn’t work) that I finally stopped fighting. Of course then depression and anxiety kicked in and I started cutting because I wanted to control who hurt me, not them. It wasn’t until later in life did I realize it really had nothing to do with being gay or a lesbian and it was about power and control and about being bullies. Some of my close friends are bisexual and homosexual and some are straight. I don’t judge and I don’t feel bad about being around them. And it doesn’t really matter what others think that you are, you know who or what you are and when you’re true to that, other things will fade away.
Of course you’ll notice it more and that’s the point of it. It’s the curious people that will see it and wonder what it is or what it was, even more curious will try to figure out what you meant by it and, some will just know. Sometimes I tend to be a little obscure with things in my art or in my writing but my writing I think what I obscure is mostly based on protecting identity. I’m usually straight up when I am explaining whatever in my writing because I feel free to be able to say more without struggling to say it out loud. Writing to me at times is like practice for speech, I think I iron things out here for awhile and then I’m able to talk about those things more readily. Of course there are some exceptions to that if I’m close to you then you know obscure things about me and very likely I know some about you.
I totally agree with this, art does decorate spaces, whether it is a painting or sculpture, building, garden it takes up space and is nice to look at and enjoy. Music on the other hand like books or poetry fill our lives and stand out because of what is said and so when you think about a time you often associate it with particular music. I know I do and we use music in weddings, funerals, memorials, every day and in many ways, for holidays, celebrations, or just to lift you up or calm you down. It’s a powerful thing and so is art.