Robin McLaurin Williams was born on July 21, 1951, and on August 11, 2014, he committed suicide. While Robin struggled in his life with his sobriety, neither drugs nor alcohol was involved in his death. For about a year he struggled with anxiety, depression, and insomnia and had been diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease. It was ruled in his autopsy that Robin suffered Lewy Body Dementia. LBD is dementia with Lewy bodies and Parkinson’s related dementia that affect the brain, cause insomnia, delusions, and motor systems.
Robin was best known as a comedian and an outstanding actor of which I adored many of the movies like, When Dreams May Come, Dead Poets Society, Good Will Hunting, Patch Adams, Awakenings, and others. His diversity for drama and comedy was unlike no other and I will forever be a fan of his work.
What was most difficult for me was having known someone and thought they were one of the people I could trust and someone that made me laugh and have them become the single biggest nightmare to me. But I think that when I came back to Wisconsin I had already been traumatized and so it was easy to have that person come into my life and end up taking control of my life. Then he snuffed the life from the two most precious ones I had that had helped me through a lot of those dark times with him. He was intimidated and felt threatened I’m sure by the love I had for my sweet Luna and Dexter so he took them away and had I stayed I am positive would have taken my life as well. He made me feel alone. He isolated me. He pushed me over the edge of my own sanity with his cruelty. I feared and still fear that he could come after me but I won’t let him have me or my life.
I think that life when it brings you its turmoil, insanity and frustration from all that is cruel and you feel beat down all you want is to be happy. All you want to do is make someone else happy and to not think of the God awful things that you went through that have left so many scars on your soul. What I would like and part of why I write is to heal my soul, to try to help others and at times to make people laugh. It is the comedian that digs into their own private collection of truths and helping us relate to their embarrassment, or by saying the things that one wants to but doesn’t have the courage to say. Those gems can be comedy gold and Robin had plenty of gold to share with us.
It is said that Robin was a very private individual and I think of myself as private as well. That may be hard to believe if you take the time to read my stories but it’s true. I think the more important message from Robin with this quote is that you don’t know what a person is going through and to be kind to one another. I believe that Robin was kind and that he wanted us to treat eachother with kindness. We could all use a bit more kindness. We could also use a bit more laughter and I will miss the laughter Robin gave. Thank you for all the laughs Robin.
This is one of my favorite skits with Robin Williams from Live at the Metropolitan Opera house in New York City.